CC41: It Takes a Village -- A Non-HDM Village, That Is

What does HDM mean? It's short for Hierarchy-Dualism-Monism (hence the need for a simpler moniker that people can actually remember and pronounce). But I'll come back to that in a minute.  

2017 marks the 150th anniversary of Canada’s founding as a nation. I found this Canadian maple leaf, a “mosaic” created from waxy leaf begonias, at one of Toronto’s soul-healing public gardens. It reminds me of what Canada is all about. Photo credit JAT 2017.

First I want to say thank you to the people of my village -- Canada. I want to say how grateful I am to the people here. I'm totally aware that I wouldn't have a snowball's chance in hell of being a practising ethical mystic if I didn't live in a community of people who just blow me away with their compassion, common sense, and high ethical standards. 

 It's been common for the mystics of history to thank God for the blessings of their journey, and sometimes there's also been praise for specific religious mentors or spiritual teachers who have guided the initiate along the way.  

But I think it's bigger than that. A mystic doesn't sprout up from nowhere. I think it's important to look at the whole context of a person's upbringing before you can understand his or her spiritual context. If each person is, metaphorically speaking, a plant growing within a much larger garden, you need to know what kind of garden that person grew up in. Not just the immediate family environment (although that's very important, of course), but the wider community environment. You need to know about the village which raised the child. What lessons did the village teach the child as he or she was growing up?  

The village I grew up in -- Canada, and more specifically the province of Ontario -- was a place where people didn't always agree, where political arguments were fought on major issues, where the painful lessons of recent history were still being processed and incorporated into both the law books and the daily lives of Canadians (lessons that stemmed from two World Wars and the Great Depression). The tension between French Canadian and English Canadian interests created several political and cultural firestorms as I was growing up. More recently, First Nations interests have reminded us that we all have to try harder to be a more inclusive, respectful society. 

But we've got a few things right here. We have a pretty workable balance between the rights of the individual and the rights of the community, the responsibilities of the individual and the responsibilities of the community. We make mistakes, to be sure, but we're open to the idea that we've made mistakes, and we're open to the idea that mistakes can be fixed. So together we try to fix them.  

We have publicly funded education and publicly funded health care that's accessible to most Canadians. (I'm not going to say "accessible to all Canadians" because the truth is that some people are slipping through the cracks. But slow progress is being made.)  

As a woman, I can attest to the fact that I've had the kind of opportunities that few women have had throughout the course of history or culture. Like many Canadian women, I've had two major blessings: the blessing of choice and the blessing of safety. Because my village was saying it was okay for me to choose, I was able to choose my own life path -- my own education, my own husband, my own family size, my own career. Because my village was saying it was NOT okay for me, as a woman, to be abused, I was able to feel safe (most of the time) as I walked (literally and figuratively) down the streets of my community.  

I didn't create these blessings for myself. My village (including my family of origin) created the environment that allowed these blessings to flourish for me and for others. My role, as an individual, is to appreciate these blessings, to give back to others what I myself have received, and to teach those who follow (i.e. the younger generation) how to live with compassion, common sense, and high ethical standards.  

Only after I began to explore philosophy -- a necessary part of being a true mystic -- did I come to understand that Canada is one of a small number of countries in the world whose culture is not bound together by one of the HDM myths that have plagued civilization since the get-go.  

You can have a reasonable, balanced dialogue with a typical Canadian on just about any inflammatory topic such as homosexuality, refugee rights, gay marriage, gun registration, and access to health care, and you won't come away from the discussion in fear of your life (not usually, anyway). You don't have to worry that a religious or military death squad will show up in the middle of the night and take you away. (Unfortunately, advocates for social justice in other parts of the world still face these profoundly inhumane threats on an ongoing basis, as a perusal of any Amnesty International newsletter will quickly reveal.)  

There are several reasons why Canada is a safer place, on the whole, in comparison to many other countries. One important reason is that most Canadians don't get up each day and volunteer to put their brains through a meat grinder.  

Yes, a meat grinder. HDM myths act like a meat grinder on your biological brain. You put a perfectly good holistically balanced brain/body/heart/soul into one end of the grinder, and out comes status-addicted mincemeat at the other end.  

Ooo, yummy.  

Sure, this kind of damage doesn't happen overnight. It takes years, years of being told that you and your village are "better" than other people and other villages, and have therefore been chosen by God to save everybody else (i.e. Hierarchy). Or years of being told you and your village are "good/right," whereas all other people and all other villages are "evil/wrong" (i.e. Dualism). Or years of being told that there's actually only one village in the entire world, and all people are required to belong to it (i.e. Monism). These myths are abusive -- spiritually, emotionally, and psychologically abusive. Eventually, they also become physically abusive.  

Where's my proof?  

Here's my proof. 

In the early to mid-20th century, a group of Germans got it into their heads that they ("Aryans") were "better" than other people and other villages, and they also got into their heads that they were God's chosen people who deserved to rule. This myth of Hierarchy led to the European Holocaust.  

In 1994, a group of Hutus in Rwanda got it into their heads that Hutus were "good/right" and Tutsis, along with peaceful Hutus, were "evil/wrong" people who deserved to die. This myth of Dualism led to the Rwandan Genocide. 

In the 1970's, a group of Cambodians in the Khmer Rouge Communist Party got it into their heads that it was okay to execute, starve, and more or less enslave anyone who was unsympathetic to the new ideals of "radical equality." This myth of Monism led to the Cambodian Holocaust.  

These examples are only the tip of the proverbial iceberg. Unfortunately, our history books contain all too many examples of mass suffering and oppression created by human leaders whose brains were/are totally addicted to the status that comes from these myths. It explains why these leaders seem to us to be psychopaths. They are psychopaths. They're psychopaths because they've stopped listening to their own inner wisdom -- their own soul -- and instead have started listening to the "voice" of status addiction. 

For status addicts, the very idea of balance in a political system is anathema. 

In contrast, there's no hierarchy to be "proven" in a social democracy where people willingly pay taxes (within reason, of course) to cover the cost of roads, schools, and hospitals. There's no dualism to be "justified" in a social democracy that embraces a multi-party system of government held to account through transparency, checks and balances, ethics commissioners, and law courts. There's no room for monism to even be considered in a social democracy that builds its laws and conventions on that sturdiest of all foundations: human rights legislation that respects and values the differences among people of different ethnicity, gender, sexual orientation, etc. 

It's true that within Canada there are some smaller HDM villages, some places and some groups and even some religious communities that have fallen prey to the HDM myths. But, as a whole, we seem to want to work together as a team to build a non-hierarchical, non-dualistic, non-monistic society. And that's a good thing. 

See you at Tim's!

CC40: How My Experience With Chemistry Has Influenced My Mysticism

Theology at its best is a language -- a language that helps individuals understand their relationship with God while not contradicting or denying one of God's other important languages: science. 

It's important for God's children to have access to the language of uplifting theology. This is because not all of God's children can easily understand or relate to the language of science. This is okay with God. In fact, it's more than okay. God's children (one of whom would be you) are not all the same. God's children are all different from each other, although we share some important traits in common, such as the ability to love and forgive.  

Your soul wasn't created by God the Mother and God the Father from a batch of dirt and a cookie cutter (Genesis 2:7 notwithstanding). In all of Creation (and it's a pretty darned big Creation!), there's no other soul quite like you. There's no other soul who thinks exactly the way you think, no other soul who expresses love exactly the way you express love. You're one of a kind.  

This means you "get" some languages better than you get other languages.  

Maybe you totally get music, which means you feel the rhythms and harmonies deep in your bones without anyone ever really teaching you how to do it. You just "get" it so deeply that your whole life is transformed by it, each and every day.  

Maybe you totally get poetry. That's a language, too. It's not the same as prose. Somehow it triggers different feelings and different responses in you than prose. You read a few verses of exquisite poetry and BAM -- powerful insights descend upon your soul and you're forever changed.  

Now don't laugh, but I react to chemistry the way many people react to music and poetry. It's not that I don't like music or poetry, it's just that, well, I really, really "get" the language of chemistry. 

“Tremble, O Earth, at the presence of the Lord, at the presence of the God of Jacob, who turns the rock into a pool of water, the flint into a spring of water” (Psalm 114: 7-8). Photo credit JAT 2017.

If you've studied a lot of chemistry,* you know that chemists don't think in quite the same way as physicists, or biologists, or computer scientists, or mathematicians. Physicists get excited about field theory. Biologists get excited about energy transfer in living organisms and ecosystems. Computer scientists can think in binary code (an amazing skill!). And mathematicians live and breathe for the wonder of tautologies (showing how two sides of an equation are actually equal).  

But chemists spend most of their time dealing with bonding. Molecular bonding. They want to know what holds atoms together into molecules. They want to understand the relationships between the constituent parts of both atoms and molecules. They spend a lot of time trying to figure out how to coax one little ion or electron from one spot to a different spot so it can do a different job. A chemist's stock in trade is the probability wave functions of electrons, those tiny little negatively charged particles that are so much smaller than an atomic "nucleus" and are so damned fussy about where they're willing to be located at any one time. Yet where would our material world be without them?  

Even though physicists now estimate that "ordinary matter" (that is, atoms and molecules) accounts for no more than 4-5% of all known energy in the known universe (they call this ordinary matter "baryonic matter"), baryonic matter has a lot to tell us about the nature of God. And this baryonic matter is what chemists really "get."  

A number of physicists these days are pulling out all the stops to try to find a unified theory of nature. (Hence the construction of the multi-billion dollar Large Hadron Collider). But, you know, for my part, as a student of chemistry and as a mystic, I'm wary of anyone in any field who starts to look for a simple unified theory of anything. This smacks of monism, the longstanding religious belief that when you get to the very heart of Creation, there exists only a singular, undifferentiated, divine "oneness." Plato's middle writings, such as Phaedrus (247c), speak of this colourless, shapeless, all-inclusive oneness. Many neo-Platonic Christian mystics have followed suit in the monism department. 

Needless to say, I'm not a monistic or apophatic mystic.  

Me, I think it's okay for us to listen to what God is saying to us through the language of chemistry. Even though baryonic matter (including the ordinary atoms and molecules that make up Planet Earth's waters, lands, and atmosphere, plus all life on Planet Earth) represents only 4-5% of the universe's energy, it's the only part of Creation we can directly access as human beings, and it's the only part of Creation that God seems to think we need while we're living here as angels-in-temporary-human-form, so I figure it's worth paying attention to! 

And as I said above, chemistry is all about bonding. It's also all about change.

Chemistry is a language that teaches us about the relationship and balance between the tiny negatively charged particles we call electrons and the much larger positively charged particles we call protons. It's also about the relationship and balance between certain probability wave functions and forces such as gravity, magnetism, etc. (I'm simplifying here and purposely skipping the whole subatomic particle thing, as it would needlessly complicate the discussion at this point). Chemistry is about the forces that bring particles together (sometimes for millions of years), but also about what pulls them apart.

When you think about a molecule such as sodium chloride (table salt), you probably think about it as salt. Me, I think of all the history behind this one molecule and its special importance in biological mechanisms across the planet. I give thanks for the way salt helps our physical bodies function so we can have the chance to better understand our relationship with God. I reflect on the wonder of the oceans, where the presence of salt creates a medium for life. I see harmony, balance, intentional cooperation, and divine love in our need for salt. There is a timelessness in this simple molecule -- sodium and chloride brought together, then pulled apart, over and over -- that speaks to the essential continuity of all life. The salt we shake on our french fries today was once part of ancient seas, ancient life. 

The science of chemistry is the language of change -- the constant reorganization of atoms and molecules (even when we can't see it). Yet it's orderly change. Though we, as humans, may not always like change, it's a necessary part of God's plan for Creation. If it were otherwise, we wouldn't see evidence of constant change in the rhythms and patterns of Earth's 4.54 billion year history.

There you have it -- my rebuke of Young Earth Creationism (the bizarre religious belief that the entire planet and everything on it are less than 10,000 years old).

In my opinion, Young Earth Creationism is an example of the language of theology at its worst.

* I studied chemistry as part of my undergraduate degree in Art History and Chemistry, and also in my Master of Art Conservation program.

CC18: "Oneness" -- The Great Bait and Switch

There's something particularly insidious about the idea that "We Are All One." 

Yeah, I know, I know . . . it sounds wonderfully spiritual and enlightened to say "we are all One." It sounds, oh, so inclusive, so un-American, so gentle and loving and soothing and healing. It sounds like the very opposite of our society's social isolation and lack of love. It sounds like something the soul would say, doesn't it?

"Can you lift up your voice to the clouds, so that a flood of waters may cover you? Can you send forth lightnings, so that they may go and say to you, 'Here we are'? Who has put wisdom in the inward parts, or given understanding to the mind? Who has the wisdom to number the clouds? Or who can tilt the waterskins of the heavens, when the dust runs into a mass and the clods cling together" (Job 38: 34-38). In this passage from the Book of Job, God is reminding Job that human beings, though loved and  cherished by God, are not being offered a chance to feel "transcendence." Photo credit JAT 2023.

Millions of spiritual seekers think so. They're out there trying to become "one" with God, "one" with Creation, "one" with each other. They're trying with all their might to "let go." They've been told by religious and spiritual teachers that they have to dissolve themselves and let go of their wants and needs in order to experience transcendence -- a blissful sense of union with the oneness of all life, a sense that all boundaries have vanished, a sense that they're finally free of all longing and suffering.

This, my friends, is not what mystical union feels like. This is what dissociation from your thoughts, feelings, and inner wisdom feels like. This is what the major mental illness called Atypical Dissociative Disorder feels like. Sometimes the dissociation is so extreme that the person can be said to exhibit psychopathy (also called sociopathy). 

Many people will be furious with me for saying this. But it needs to be said. And it needs to be fully researched. There's no excuse for the church -- or anyone else, for that matter -- to be teaching people to dissociate from their thoughts, feelings, and needs. This is reckless, dangerous, and abusive. It scars people's central nervous systems, typically for life. It's no different from driving a steel rod through their skulls, and turning them all into Phineas-Gage-lookalikes. (Phineas Gage was a 19th century worker who underwent a dramatic personality change after an industrial accident propelled a steel rod through his left cheek, into the orbitofrontal cortex of his brain, and out the top of his head.)

I am a practising mystic. I'm NOT a mystical wannabee who wants to be counted as a mystic but has never actually had a genuine mystical experience. Thomas Merton, famed 20th century Christian monk, contemplative, and writer on mysticism, died in his 50's without ever having experienced a transformative mystical connection with God. Yet he wrote many books on the topic. I think he was a very sincere man, but I don't think it was right for him to claim to be an expert on something he'd never figured out for himself. 

Me, I don't keep track of the many mystical experiences I've had in the past few years, because mystical experiences are now a normal part of my normal, everyday, Canadian life.

I live a normal Canadian life in most ways. I don't live in a religious community, and I don't live according to traditional Christian monastic rules. I have an apartment, a car, and a job. I take courses at the university. I get together with friends and family. I like to listen to pop music, and I love to watch TV (certain shows only, though).

Yet woven all around and within this daily life is a deep spiritual practice that yields a tremendous harvest of mystical connection with God. How have I managed to do this when dedicated, highly religious people like Thomas Merton have failed? I've managed to do this because I've discarded all spiritual teachings that insist "we are all One."

These ripple patterns in a still lake were formed as single water droplets fell from the trees after a heavy rain. As souls, each of us affects the universe in the way these small water droplets bring wavelets to the lake. From a distance, it may look as if the waters of the lake are "all One." But up close, each droplet affects the lake in unique ways. Christian mystics have too often looked at Creation from a distance and chosen to see it as "all One." In fact, Creation is a marvel of diversity and uniqueness. It's Divine Love that creates the background of calmness and beauty against which each soul -- each droplet -- can paint a small picture that says, "I'm here! I may be small, but I matter!" Together, countless small droplets flow and dance and weave together to create infinite wonders. Photo credit JAT 2015.

We are not all One. To say that we should have empathy for other people is NOT the same as saying we are all One. Of course I believe we should have empathy for others. Of course I believe there'd be a whole lot less suffering in the world if more people had empathy for others. Of course I believe that to cultivate empathy is to walk the walk of a spiritual life. 

But this isn't what spiritual leaders mean when they say to you that "we're all One." They mean it literally -- they mean there's literally no real distinction, no real boundary, between you and your God. They mean that boundaries between you and other people are "illusion." They try to use some of the recent findings from physics to "prove" that everything in the universe is really only a manifestation of one big blob of energy in the sky. (Yes, I'm being facetious).

When they say you're One with God, they mean that if you try hard enough to shed all your humanness (like a snake shedding its old skin), you'll be able to merge with that big blob of energy called Creator. In effect, you'll become God, because you'll be able to "remember" that your "inner spark" is God. Once you've achieved this wondrous state of perfection, you'll no longer have to struggle with annoying human challenges such as forgiveness. You'll be above illusory things such as forgiveness. What's to forgive, after all, if the neighbour who harmed you is really just "you" in a different snake suit?

Isn't it an interesting coincidence that when you fully embrace the idea that "we're all One," you don't have to do any spiritual work anymore?

It's a good life, being "One with the All." You don't have to struggle with messy feelings, because you've dissociated yourself from your healthy human emotions. You don't have to feel guilt or shame about your choices, because all choices are illusory anyway. You can smile when other people are crying, because you've detached yourself from all that pain and grief stuff. You can go around pretending you understand what unconditional love is, because words are cheap when you're disconnected from your own inner wisdom, disconnected from your own soul.

The true path of the soul -- a path that has rarely been described in the history of Christian mysticism -- is the path of finding yourself rather than losing yourself. It's the path of finding out who you really are as the soul God made you to be. (Needless to say, everyone's soul is amazingly awesome.) It's the path of finding out what makes you a unique individual in a vast angelic family of other unique individuals (none of whom are better than you -- they're just different from you). It's the path of learning how to deal with powerful, divine emotions such as love, gratitude, courage, devotion, and trust. It's the path of honouring and respecting the differences between us (i.e. our gender, race, age, talents, quirks, and "blind spots"), and at the same time rejoicing in what makes us the same (i.e. our innate ability to love, to learn, to change, to forgive). It's the path of knowing who you are so you can know who other people are. It's the path of respecting boundaries between you and other people. It's the path of respecting boundaries between you and God.

Only then will you be able to enter into a mature and humble relationship with God the Mother and God the Father while you're living your human life.

This is the path that Jesus has taught me. 

I highly recommend it.